For many months I lived in the shadow of amiss
Did some things I thought would bring me pure bliss
Things I know I would never be proud of
I’ve compromised my emotions and put it into shove.
Those flashy, red warning signs I see them everywhere
Tells me to run in opposite direction but I didn’t care
I didn’t listen to what my friends are telling
All I hear is my heart beating and this drugged-kind of feeling.
We’ve said our promise for love on that perfect moonlit night
With the cool winds hovering and stars beaming, everything seemed right
Nothing seem to matter but only the love we have for each other
It feels real, sincere, like we have our own world to conquer.
We were both aware of the complications we’re facing
We both know it’s an insurmountable mountain we’re climbing
But as long as you and I are in this together
There’s no storm we couldn’t weather.
Yes, it was a perfect promise we made
Thought I’d only see it in movies played
But soon enough realization struck me
I began to question my sanity.
I was so sure back then I wanted to be with you
Right or wrong, this forbidden affair we’re gonna pursue
Yet circumstances had its way of waking me up
In my deepest slumber, I realized this is all but crap!
All I ever wanted is to chase my happiness
But chasing it in the wrong path doesn’t give me inner peace
I couldn’t be happy knowing I’m hurting someone in the process
I couldn’t forgive myself for wrecking a vow to eternity, their seal of promise.
Maybe you really loved me like you said
Maybe you really cared like you did
Maybe what we both have is real
But for now, only time will tell.
No matter how true and genuine our feelings may be
No matter how strong, how far we’re willing to be
No matter if we’re holding hands at the end of this fight
Still we both know, we were more wrong than we were right.
And so I stopped, gathered myself and came to a decision
This crazy thing we had going on should come to a conclusion
Doing the right thing has always been easy for me
But letting go of someone like you has never been this messy.
I’m trying to be strong, I’m trying to be tough
It’s painful and it’s tearing my heart into half
Each day I’m praying for the pain to go away
I’m summoning my courage to move on anyway.
My days without you will never be the same
What used to be sunshine are now gray skies
Where I used to hear chirping birds are now filled with silence
When my eyes are used to see butterflies now filled with tears.
I’m letting you go and I’m walking away
I’m leaving those dreams that we’re meant to be
Maybe someday, some time, when the stars are right
We’ll see each other amid His guiding light.