One of the many things I like to do when I was still a student is to write poetry. I'm not a poet though, but there's fun in it. There's fun in how you carefully create the lines, choose and play with words to make it sound as intense and meaningful as it should be.
I've written several poems that I keep in a small notebook hidden. But I don't know where is it now. I'm half glad that it's lost coz I'd surely be laughing mock at it when I read those craziness. At the same time I'm sad coz it's a treasure from my glorious teenage days when I still had a different view about life and love. It would be great to look back at them and see how far I've grown.
My poems usually talk about love coz it's the easiest among others and you can just pour out the words effortlessly. My poems are simple, not as complicated as Shakespeare's, so I would totally be ashamed to show it to any poet hehehe...
I've been out of practice for quite sometime. I stopped writing poetry when I graduated. So now, with ultra boredom kicking in, got nothing to do, I started jabbing out the words and see if I can still do it.
This is just one foolish poem, okay?
Standing in my room, staring out the window
My heart is racing while I think of you
Thinking of what could be had it been the other way
I would have shielded my heart from this brewing misery
We were friends that's all I thought it would be
My best pal I can count on when tide ebbs the sea
But suddenly things change as it stirs me
I'm lost in our world that used to be friendly
Thought this feeling ain't get out of hand
I've told my heart but it never seems to understand
Each day my emotions grow deeper and stronger
Like a bond we used to share together
Loving you isn't right
How long shall I intend this feeling to fight?
To love you is like a curse
But my heart doesn't take remorse
You are not mine to possess
You rightfully belonged to someone else
You're committed and no longer free
To that girl I've grown to envy
Why does doing the right thing seems the hardest thing to do?
I should have walked away from you long time ago
But I'm stupid, pathetic, a complete loser
I let down my walls and self-worth lesser
If only I can do one magic, they had me asked
My first trick would be to undo the past
I'll make sure you and her would have never met
So your eyes will only be in mine you set